November

so, i was reading through my friends blogs today and a lot of people now have up halloween stuff, how it was halloween, and ow the time is going fast (remeber fall seems to be the busy season for everyone.) and such.
but it occurs to me that not only has halloween passed but it is november! with thanksgiving approaching quickly around the corner. then christmas, then new years. omg! they just keep coming. this is my favorite time of year. i love it. but i rather enjoy being busy. makes me feel important and needed....
wow, i just realized i have pretty low self esteem tight now. well maybe not just realized it, i think i've known for a few months. it seems to me rather odd. in school we talked about low self esteem with counslers and stuff but it seemed then, either you had it, or you didnt. its really strange to feel such negative feelings and have such low esteem of one's self after being very outgoing and charismatic for so long.
...ANYWAY. so i am so excited the holidays are officially here! mr. k is coming down to see us next week. and the mother in law will be out a week or so after that. she'll be here to celebrate her 60th b-day and thanksgiving. my parents will be gone celebrating thanksgiving with my brothers and my new nephews! but my parnets will be back for christmas. then, i really, really hope we can hit omaha for new years, to party with good friends.
oooh, and it is time to start baking! i love to bake. and i have no excuse not to have time this year since i am a stay home mom now. i can bake with my little girl during the day. of course i always feel guilty doing fun stuff when my big girls not around. i really need to get over that since she does go to school during the day. it is ok to have fun with out her. we are really close though. oh, last night she feel asleep on the couch watching a movie. mr poni went to get her up to go to bed and he said, "you have to get up and walk to bed, i cant carry you any more." well, dont wake my little (big) girl up. i informed mr poni that he should have picked her up instead of trying to wake her because, "i can pick her up." kyle was over at our house too watching all this. i leaned over the couch to pick up my now 60+ pound daughter and i whispered in her ear, "come on, help me make daddy look bad. i need your help to pick you up. hold on." she opened her eyes just slightly to look at me and slipped her arm around my back and.. tada. pwerhouse mom lifted her from the couch and carried her to bed! kyle told mr poni, "i guess we now who wears the pants in this family!". too funny. like i said, my daughter and i are close. :)